I did it the hard way

Regrets, I¹ve had a few. One recently came up and patted me on the back.
Let me take you on a journey to a time when all my parts jiggled in the right places and I thought my farts smelled like roses.

I¹ll be as vague as possible so that I won¹t embarrass myself (or anyone else).
I have a ³friend² who has a friend who I had a few lustful moments with.Now this friend of my friend had an on again off again girlfriend, so he told me,I just didn¹t know when she was on and when she was off. Eventually he dumped me and I found out that he was back with her. I was stunned, after all my youth and arrogance told me that no one could be better than me. In order to sooth my bruised ego, I badmouthed my friend¹s friend¹s girlfriend at every turn. In hindsight (and maturing wisdom) I should have been spewing my venom at my friend¹s friendŠnot his girlfriend.

A few years later my friend¹s friend and his girlfriend get marriedŠI still have no stable boyfriend therefore my loathing for them is firmly in place. Many years more, they have two children and I just start my married life. Being married must have acted like an epiphany for me (as many people told me that I seem more calm, centeredŠI¹m not that much of a bwitch anymore) and I realize that I harbored ill feelings toward someone who didn¹t deserve my hatred. As soon as I came to that realization I felt like a heel. How do I express regret to someone who doesn¹t know (as far as I know) how I felt.

Fast forward to two years ago, when I had my Son prematurely. The Wife of the friend of a friend called my Family to inquire about my Son and to see if there was anything she could do for us. Wow if I weren¹t concerned about my baby, I would really feel like a heel.

OK here we are present time (finally this story is coming to an end) I¹m very involved in the March of Dimes and the Wife of a friend of a friend offers to walk with our Family Team and help raise money. She comes over to my home (my one bedroom apartment with two kids) to plan our fund raising strategies when her youngest points out the fact that a roach is crawling around behind her MotherŠWow do I have a lot of Karma to work on. This woman is very easy going, and realistic, which makes me think that I would be forgiven for my indiscretions (either that or she¹s waiting for the right time to get me back)