Hell Week

What a horrendous week I've had. Sunday we were invited to my Parents house for my Birthday dinner. Dinner was pizza and an argument (at least I think it can be called an argument). Two people flew off the handle and stormed off in two different directions. The dinner was eaten in uncomfortable silence, and I had to clear off the table.

Wednesday my friend Lisa and I have a standing play date. It was so incredibly hot that day that we couldn't even think about going out. We ended up eating fast food then going to a shady Park, only to be surrounded by ramPUNKious camp kids. One kid ran up the slide as my 2 year old tried to slide down. I wanted to belt this kid in his braces!!!!

Thursday comes and my Parents asked if I would stay at the house to let the Plumbers in. I get to the house for 8:30 and the Plumber aren¹t there. I feed my Kids do a load of wash
and Dad calls ³are they there yet² ³no Dad they aren¹t² ³Damn them!² Dad calls again ³they¹re coming between 12 and 1.² ³O.K. Dad.² Great that¹s just wonderful, right during nap time. I then proceed to drop my Daughter¹s lunch, burn mine, drop the liquid detergent BEHIND the washing machine, half the bottle spills out, and the Laundry room smell like Spring Rain freshness (or some other stink like that). My son is now on the floor whining because he¹s that tried, I retrieve the pack n play, set it up and the center floor button keeps popping up (ARRGH). I slam the button down throw the baby in (figuratively don¹t call DYFUS on me now) and I have a phone session with a Therapist at 2:00, I forgot to bring her phone number and it¹s now 1:50. Dad calls ³did they get there?² ³No Dad they¹re not here yet.² ³Jesus Christ, well if you have to leave don¹t worry, screw them if nobody is home.² ³O.K. Dad, hope it doesn¹t come to that, but O.K.² My Grandma said she would watch my Daughter while I¹m on the phone. My Daughter goes to my Grandmother¹s door, rings the bell twice and no answer, its now 2:00. Oh no is something wrong? Did my Grandmother pass out; is she lying on the floor with a broken hip? I pound on the inside door, and what seemed like minutes my Grandmother opens the door, ³I was taking a nap.² ³Did you forget that you were going to watch my Daughter for an hour?² ³Well you were suppose to call me before you brought her over.² O.K, whatever you crazy old lady, apparently we had two different versions of what was to happen. It¹s now 2:05 and boy do I need to talk to this Therapist! I get the number from information, dial it and her voice mail comes on. Twenty min. later I finally reach her (she had an emergency w/one of her clients )
Bottom line : The plumbers never did show up.

I was on my way home around 5pm and I know the local streets get backed up. I got on the Garden State Parkway for one exit (and as soon as I got on I thought to myself that I made the wrong decision)
Anyway. I stayed in the right lane because that was also the exit lane. There was enough room to allow two/three cars in front of me, and get up to highway speed. I realized that I was coming up on the car in front of me quickly so I applied my breaks hard and came to a brief stop. Next thing I know is that I felt like I was on I carnival ride. When I opened my eyes I was looking at the ceiling of the car. The kids had a moment of being stunned then started screaming and crying. The shithead who hit me started swearing up a storm, never came over to exchange info (thankfully a State Trooper came), never even asked if the kids were O.K. After I calmed the kids down I got out of the car to see the extent of the damage and I got Hysterical (I'm not very good in a crisis). The back window was busted out and all I could say was that I was never in an accident like this before and the jerk who hit me said DEFENSIVELY "well neither have I!"

The kids are O.K. physically. They freak out on me though when they see the car. When they see the photos that my Husband took they come running over and just start pulling on me and want to get in my lap.
When the garage came to tow the car, I thought the kids would want to see "Mader" (from Cars), But when they saw the car being towed they just started crying.

I am a little bruised. My thumb is stranded (I jammed it on the steering wheel) and in a splint.

I just this morning got a call form Allstate saying that the garage said the car is beyond repair. Allstate is going to total it. Now we are going to have to start from square one. Just when we thought that we could start looking for a house. =(

Birthday Blahs

I know it¹s been awhile since I wroteŠ. I¹ve been busy and when I wasn¹t I was lazy.
But yesterday was my Birthday. I¹ve always been a BIG Birthday person. (Mine or yours) It¹s a special day and you should do something to feel special.

Well it¹s a GORGOUS day out and I have no one to play with. . I had a fight with my Parents (always a long and twisted story). My Best Friend is driving 10 hours with two kids for an in-law's Wedding. My Sister In Law already has a play date, and my other Stay at Home Mom friend has REALLY BAD PMS. So it¹s just me and my two raving lunatic children. Wish me luck.

Bad Karma in the Wal- Mart Restroom

How many times have you gone into a public bathroom and decided to use the big spacious handicapped stall? Especially if your Daughter says,"but I really have to go bad", and you have the other kid locked down in the double stroller. Have you ever really seen anyone in a wheelchair waiting to get in? You can see where I¹m going with this?

The Family was in Wal- Mart this weekend looking for dress shoes for the little girl. She¹s the Flower Girl in my Brother¹s Wedding and she won¹t be wearing these shoes very long or again, so I can¹t justify spending 75.00 for them. But back to the point, sorry I can¹t seem to focus on the subject at hand even in my Blog.

We found the shoes yippee (for 7.00 no less). I whispered to my husband that I had to pee. Little Miss Big Ears heard me and said she did too (Damn it). She wanted Daddy to take her (so did Mommy) but Daddy is adamantly against that for safety reasons (ask him!) So in the bathroom I go with my shadow behind me singing and dancing and touching everything. I automatically head to the handicapped stall, because being in the other stall, with her, is like being in a Phone Booth with a caffinated feral cat. I, without being too graphic, had a problem while going so I¹m in there for a while. My daughter tells me that she doesn¹t have to go, so she¹s running around the stall and I¹m saying,"Stop That! Don¹t Touch! That's Icky..NO!" Then in between my discipline statements I hear a man¹s voice. What the hell, did the janitor come in? Is someone drunk in Wal- Mart? Once I get out of the stall I see this guy standing in front of one of the other stalls with a wheelchair, and the woman he was with moaning,"I just couldn¹t wait." Needless to say he gives me a dirty look, I sheepishly apologize and quickly escorted my jabber jaws out of there "Mommy why is that man in here, this is only for girls!"

I Was Snubbed At A Yard Sale

Yeap! Snubbed at a yard sale (of all places). All the Communities (neighborhoods, let’s be real) were having yards sales this past weekend. My Husband and I decided to go to the one in Pine Beach because it was have closest and one of the “better” areas (which amounts to snazzier junk).

Well, we went into one yard with lots of baby things and I found a small rug, and two outfits, without prices on them (I hate when they do that). When I finally figured out who was selling the items I stared her in the face and she looked at me while holding onto an empty stroller and said this is the Rolls Royce of strollers. She then processed to talk to another “customer” about the Range Rover that her Rolls Royce Stroll folds into nicely. Well while it was a pretty stroller I could give a flip about it. My Cosco Stroller works just fine for me, Thank You very much. Who in their right (or left ) mind would pay $$$$ for something that your child will probably what out of in about a year, and who will inevitable spit up on.

After standing there for a few seconds not being acknowledged I thought I don’t want to beg her to take my hard earned money and I tossed them into her Rolls Royce Stroller and walked out.

Now in my OPINION, if you can afford the Range Rover and the Rolls Royce Strollers….what the he!! are you doing having a yard sale!?!?!

What’s Next?

Wow what a crappy week. First my Husband doesn’t get that great job he interviewed for, then I have to get a stool sample from EACH one of my children (enough to fill 3 jars each) BUT worst of all Chris get voted off of A.I.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

A Little Justice

So we (my Husband two Kids and I) were driving home from the Rock (that is Staten Island New York for those of you who don t know). Saturday night. It was late for us but prime party time for others.

We were just going through the Raritan toll plaza and trying to merge with traffic when two RICHARD CRANIUMS blow past us one following the other and swaying in and out of the lane as if they were dancing with each other. Just imagine those ZOOM ZOOM commercials that post in tiny print at the bottom of the TV screen: closed course professional drives do not attempt.

One of the vehicles was a royal blue poor mans sport car (I don¹t know what kind it was and I don¹t care) the one that followed was a shiny black SUV.

My Husband and I of course called them every name in the book that we could that was rated PG (a VERY difficult task) but we ended by saying: Where are the cops when you really want them. Lo-and ­behold we see a Shark (a police cruiser) stalking past us in the left lane. YEAH!!!! Go get the idiot. Too bad they couldn¹t catch the SUVŠOH wait a minute there goes another Shark Šand there is the shiny black SUV!!!!!!!! Well it¹s about time!!! Those two Morons most likely blow the tolls too. Well my Husband and I had a good giggle over that. We slept well that night too.

I did it the hard way

Regrets, I¹ve had a few. One recently came up and patted me on the back.
Let me take you on a journey to a time when all my parts jiggled in the right places and I thought my farts smelled like roses.

I¹ll be as vague as possible so that I won¹t embarrass myself (or anyone else).
I have a ³friend² who has a friend who I had a few lustful moments with.Now this friend of my friend had an on again off again girlfriend, so he told me,I just didn¹t know when she was on and when she was off. Eventually he dumped me and I found out that he was back with her. I was stunned, after all my youth and arrogance told me that no one could be better than me. In order to sooth my bruised ego, I badmouthed my friend¹s friend¹s girlfriend at every turn. In hindsight (and maturing wisdom) I should have been spewing my venom at my friend¹s friendŠnot his girlfriend.

A few years later my friend¹s friend and his girlfriend get marriedŠI still have no stable boyfriend therefore my loathing for them is firmly in place. Many years more, they have two children and I just start my married life. Being married must have acted like an epiphany for me (as many people told me that I seem more calm, centeredŠI¹m not that much of a bwitch anymore) and I realize that I harbored ill feelings toward someone who didn¹t deserve my hatred. As soon as I came to that realization I felt like a heel. How do I express regret to someone who doesn¹t know (as far as I know) how I felt.

Fast forward to two years ago, when I had my Son prematurely. The Wife of the friend of a friend called my Family to inquire about my Son and to see if there was anything she could do for us. Wow if I weren¹t concerned about my baby, I would really feel like a heel.

OK here we are present time (finally this story is coming to an end) I¹m very involved in the March of Dimes and the Wife of a friend of a friend offers to walk with our Family Team and help raise money. She comes over to my home (my one bedroom apartment with two kids) to plan our fund raising strategies when her youngest points out the fact that a roach is crawling around behind her MotherŠWow do I have a lot of Karma to work on. This woman is very easy going, and realistic, which makes me think that I would be forgiven for my indiscretions (either that or she¹s waiting for the right time to get me back)

Monumentally Busy (to quote a friend who likes to quote movies)

Hello Everyone, We hope all is well. We’ve been busy (but then whohasn’t) with baby showers, bridal showers, weddings, first birthdays,photo shoots, and Walkamerica, which brings us to the business at hand.“Tis” the season for the March Of Dimes Walkathon, and time to ask fordonations again. This is the part we hate doing, for the organizationwe love).

As you all may know, our Son, Vaughn was a Preemie.
Heis doing wonderful now at almost 2 yrs. old, harassing his Sister andclimbing the furniture. However there ARE Preemies that AREN’T asfortunate. They (and their Parent) are the ones we are walking for.

Weknow that if you (or someone close to you) haven’t experienced this,it’s very difficult to relate. To give you a perspective, we receivedsome paperwork for our Family Team (Vaughn’s Victory) and in it was adescription of babies born so early that they were no longer than adollar bill and weighed less than a can of soda. Chilling! SinceVaughn has been growing and hitting his milestones, we lose sight ofhow he came into the world and who helped him.

O.K. enoughdramatics, if you can, please donate. We know it’s been a tough yearfor some of our friends (we understand that all too well) but even ifyou can give one or two dollars, that would be appreciated. Our Teamthis year is smaller, (two members can’t walk because, they are due tohave their babies before/after the walk date). Therefore the few leftmust work (beg) that much more, if we want to beat our total from lastyear, which was 2400.00. If you can donate please go to my personalpage in the sidebar under "thing I've sunk my teeth into." Please alsoknow that some of you may work for a company that will match youdonation, and if you know someone who would be willing to donate,please pass this along to them.

Thanks
The walk is on April 30th.

Sick and Sad in Scrapland

I am soooooo disapointed. I had to backout of Scrapbook night with Tara =( She usually comes over at 7pm we order pizza (and more), then we watch A.I. or Dancing With The Stars (depending on the night) and we scrap til Dawn's early light.

I woke up this morning feeling as if my neck turned into a tree trunk. Everytime I lifted my head off the pillow I had an instant headache. I was suspose to have my blood drawn this morning, but I think that I would have fainted if I did.

I went to my Mom's to do the wash (I hate doing it there, but it would cost me $8-12 at the apartment's facilities). I had a light load (only 4 machines) and by the time I finished the FIRST load I was exhusted. I didn't even finish folding the last load, I just scooped everthing up (including the Kids) and stumbled into the car.

The kids are now watching a video. When Daddy cames home he can put them to bed and then go pick up Dinner while I watch A.I. laying on the couch. (not too selfish and demanding)

To Ebay or Not to Ebay.

Hmmmm. Everyone says the Ebay is a good way to make some extra money. Lord knows that I could use extra money. So I try Ebay. I think that I’m the ONLY person in Ebay history that lost money selling on Ebay!!!!! We have a small apartment and two Kids.
We are aching for elbowroom. Today we (well I) were on a cleaning/redecorating jag. I found 6 (SIX!!!) 20gl totes filled with baby clothes to sell on Ebay. Now, we tried selling and to be honest…it’s a big pain in the a$$. I would put 4 items up and maybe 2 would sell. They all would have people watching them then, when it came due to the closing bid …NOTHING! and I would still have to pay for the listing. I would relist the items thinking well I had lots of watchers, maybe this time…and still no bids. What’s wrong with you people? My stuff is really cute (I do have good taste) and they’re clean. To make a long story more boring we have a friend who’s Brother is having another baby (you know I mean his Wife). Our friend asked us if we could start saving our Son’s clothes for them. I said that all we have right now are 18m if they want. Then I found those 6 totes (I don’t know how I didn’t notice them. 6 totes aren’t easy to hide in a one-bedroom apartment). I looked through ALL of those totes (it give me my shopping fix) and I now have two totes for our friend’s Brother’s baby, one tote for my Second Husband’s (Lisa) Daughter, another one for the little girl who lives up in PA. The rest are going to Goodwill/consignment. I feel so liberated.

My Husband and I not Conservatives (quite the contray we're pretty much left of center)
Nor are we fanatial flag wavers, but this article,that my Husband posted on our Forum, is an interesting read and I wanted to share it with the blogspot community.




Thanks to Jim Appleby for providing this insightful article. Please take
the time to read the attached essay by Dr. Chong. It is without a doubt
the most articulate and convincing writing I have read regarding the War
in Iraq. If you have any doubts please open your mind to his essay and
give a fair evaluation.

I had no idea who Dr. Chong is or the source of these thoughts... so when
I received them, I almost deleted them - as well-written as they are. But
then I did a "Google search" on the Doctor and found him to be a retired
Air Force Surgeon of all things and past Commander of Wilford Hall
Medical Center in San Antonio. So he is real, is connected to Veterans
affairs in California, and these are his thoughts. They are worth reading
and thinking about!(the same Google search will direct you to some of his
other thought-provoking writings.)

Subject: Muslims, terrorist and the USA. A different spin on Iraq war.

This WAR is for REAL! Dr. Vernon Chong, Major General, USAF, Retired

Tuesday, July 12, 2005
To get out of a difficulty, one usually must go through it. Our country
is now facing the most serious threat to its existence, as we know it,
that we have faced in your lifetime and mine (which includes WWII).

The deadly seriousness is greatly compounded by the fact that there are
very few of us who think we can possibly lose this war and even fewer who
realize what losing really means.

First, let's examine a few basics:

1. When did the threat to us start?
Many will say September 11, 2001. The answer as far as the United State
is concerned is 1979, 22 years prior to September 2001, with the
following attacks on us:

* Iran Embassy Hostages, 1979;
* Beirut, Lebanon Embassy 1983;
* Beirut, Lebanon Marine Barracks 1983;
* Lockerbie, Scotland Pan-Am flight to New York 1988;
* First New York World Trade Center attack 1993;
* Dhahran, Saudi Arabia Khobar Towers Military complex 1996;
* Nairobi, Kenya US Embassy 1998;
* Dares Salaam, Tanzania US Embassy 1998;
* Aden, Yemen USS Cole 2000;
* New York World Trade Center 2001;
* Pentagon 2001.

(Note that during the period from 1981 to 2001 there were 7,581 terrorist
attacks worldwide).

2. Why were we attacked?

Envy of our position, our success, and our freedoms. The attacks happened
during the administrations of Presidents Carter, Reagan, Bush
1, Clinton and Bush 2. We cannot fault either the Republicans or
Democrats as there were no provocations by any of the presidents or their
immediate predecessors, Presidents Ford or Carter.

3. Who were the attackers?
In each case, the attacks on the US were carried out by Muslims.

4. What is the Muslim population of the World? 25%.

5. Isn't the Muslim Religion peaceful?
Hopefully, but that is really not material. There is no doubt that the
predominately Christian population of Germany was peaceful, but under the
dictatorial leadership of Hitler (who was also Christian), that made no
difference. You either went along with the administration or you were
eliminated. There were 5 to 6 million Christians killed by the Nazis for
political reasons (including 7,000 Polish priests). (see
http://www.nazis.testimony.co.uk/7-a.htm )

Thus, almost the same number of Christians were killed by the Nazis, as
the six million holocaust Jews who were killed by them, and we seldom
heard of anything other than the Jewish atrocities. Although Hitler kept
the world focused on the Jews, he had no hesitancy about killing anyone
who got in his way of exterminating the Jews or of taking over the world
- German, Christian or any others.

Same with the Muslim terrorists. They focus the world on the US, but kill
all in the way -- their own people or the Spanish, French or anyone else.
The point here is that just like the peaceful Germans were of no
protection to anyone from the Nazis, no matter how many peaceful Muslims
there may be, they are no protection for us from the terrorist Muslim
leaders and what they are fanatically bent on doing -- by their own
pronouncements -- killing all of us "infidels." I don't blame the
peaceful Muslims. What would you do if the choice was shut up or die?

6. So who are we at war with?

There is no way we can honestly respond that it is anyone other than the
Muslim terrorists. Trying to be politically correct and avoid verbalizing
this conclusion can well be fatal. There is no way to win if you don't
clearly recognize and articulate who you are fighting.

So with that background, now to the two major questions:

1. Can we lose this war?

2. What does losing really mean?

If we are to win, we must clearly answer these two pivotal questions

We can definitely lose this war, and as anomalous as it may sound, the
major reason we can lose is that so many of us simply do not fathom the
answer to the second question - What does losing mean?

It would appear that a great many of us think that losing the war means
hanging our heads, bringing the troops home and going on about our
business, like post Vietnam. This is as far from the truth as one can
get.

What losing really means is:

We would no longer be the premier country in the world. The attacks will
not subside, but rather will steadily increase. Remember, they want us
dead, not just quiet. If they had just wanted us quiet, they would not
have produced an increasing series of attacks against us, over the past
18 years. The plan was clearly, for terrorist to attack us, until we were
neutered and submissive to them.

We would of course have no future support from other nations, for fear of
reprisals and for the reason that they would see, we are impotent and
cannot help them.

They will pick off the other non-Muslim nations, one at a time. It will
be increasingly easier for them. They already hold Spain hostage. It
doesn't matter whether it was right or wrong for Spain to withdraw its
troops from Iraq. Spain did it because the Muslim terrorists bombed their
train and told them to withdraw the troops. Anything else they want Spain
to do will be done. Spain is finished.

The next will probably be France. Our one hope on France is that they
might see the light and realize that if we don't win, they are finished
too, in that they can't resist the Muslim terrorists without us. However,
it may already be too late for France. France is already 20% Muslim and
fading fast!

If we lose the war, our production, income, exports and way of life will
all vanish as we know it. After losing, who would trade or deal with us,
if they were threatened by the Muslims. If we can't stop the Muslims, how
could anyone else?

The Muslims fully know what is riding on this war, and therefore are
completely committed to winning, at any cost. We better know it too and
be likewise committed to winning at any cost.

Why do I go on at such lengths about the results of losing? Simple. Until
we recognize the costs of losing, we cannot unite and really put
100% of our thoughts and efforts into winning. And it is going to take
that 100% effort to win.

So, how can we lose the war?

Again, the answer is simple. We can lose the war by "imploding." That is,
defeating ourselves by refusing to recognize the enemy and their purpose,
and really digging in and lending full support to the war effort If we
are united, there is no way that we can lose. If we continue to be
divided, there is no way that we can win!

Let me give you a few examples of how we simply don't comprehend the life
and death seriousness of this situation.

President Bush selects Norman Mineta as Secretary of Transportation.
Although all of the terrorist attacks were committed by Muslim men
between 17 and 40 years of age, Secretary Mineta refuses to allow
profiling. Does that sound like we are taking this thing seriously? This
is war! For the duration, we are going to have to give up some of the
civil rights we have become accustomed to. We had better be prepared to
lose some of our civil rights temporarily or we will most certainly lose
all of them permanently.

And don't worry that it is a slippery slope. We gave up plenty of civil
rights during WWII, and immediately restored them after the victory and
in fact added many more since then.

Do I blame President Bush or President Clinton before him?

No, I blame us for blithely assuming we can maintain all of our Political
Correctness, and all of our civil rights during this conflict and have a
clean, lawful, honorable war. None of those words apply to war. Get them
out of your head.

Some have gone so far in their criticism of the war and/or the
Administration that it almost seems they would literally like to see us
lose. I hasten to add that this isn't because they are disloyal. It is
because they just don't recognize what losing means. Nevertheless, that
conduct gives the impression to the enemy that we are divided and
weakening. It concerns our friends, and it does great damage to our
cause.

Of more recent vintage, the uproar fueled by the politicians and media
regarding the treatment of some prisoners of war, perhaps exemplifies
best what I am saying. We have recently had an issue, involving the
treatment of a few Muslim prisoners of war, by a small group of our
military police. These are the type prisoners who just a few months ago
were throwing their own people off buildings, cutting off their hands,
cutting out their tongues and otherwise murdering their own people just
for disagreeing with Saddam Hussein.

And just a few years ago these same type prisoners chemically killed
400,000 of their own people for the same reason. They are also the same
type of enemy fighters, who recently were burning Americans, and dragging
their charred corpses through the streets of Iraq.

And still more recently, the same type of enemy that was and is providing
videos to all news sources internationally, of the beheading of American
prisoners they held.

Compare this with some of our press and politicians, who for several days
have thought and talked about nothing else but the "humiliating" of some
Muslim prisoners -- not burning them, not dragging their charred corpses
through the streets, not beheading them, but "humiliating" them.

Can this be for real?

The politicians and pundits have even talked of impeachment of the
Secretary of Defense. If this doesn't show the complete lack of
comprehension and understanding of the seriousness of the enemy we are
fighting, the life and death struggle we are in and the disastrous
results of losing this war, nothing can.

To bring our country to a virtual political standstill over this prisoner
issue makes us look like Nero playing his fiddle as Rome burned --
totally oblivious to what is going on in the real world. Neither we, nor
any other country, can survive this internal strife. Again I say, this
does not mean that some of our politicians or media people are disloyal.
It simply means that they are absolutely oblivious to the magnitude, of
the situation we are in and into which the Muslim terrorists have been
pushing us, for many years.

Remember, the Muslim terrorists stated goal is to kill all infidels! That
translates into ALL non-Muslims -- not just in the United State, but
throughout the world.

We are the last bastion of defense.

We have been criticized for many years as being 'arrogant.' That charge
is valid in at least one respect. We are arrogant in that we believe that
we are so good, powerful and smart, that we can win the hearts and minds
of all those who attack us, and that with both hands tied behind our
back, we can defeat anything bad in the world!

We can't!

If we don't recognize this, our nation as we know it will not survive,
and no other free country in the world will survive if we are defeated.

And finally, name any Muslim countries throughout the world that allow
freedom of speech, freedom of thought, freedom of religion, freedom of
the press, equal rights for anyone -- let alone everyone, equal status or
any status for women, or that have been productive in one single way that
contributes to the good of the world.

This has been a long way of saying that we must be united on this war or
we will be equated in the history books to the self-inflicted fall of the
Roman Empire . If, that is, the Muslim leaders will allow history books
to be written or read.

If we don't win this war right now, keep a close eye on how the Muslims
take over France in the next 5 years or less. They will continue to
increase the Muslim population of France and continue to encroach little
by little, on the established French traditions. The French will be
fighting among themselves, over what should or should not be done, which
will continue to weaken them and keep them from any united resolve.
Doesn't that sound eerily familiar?

Democracies don't have their freedoms taken away from them by some
external military force. Instead, they give their freedoms away,
politically correct piece by politically correct piece.

And they are giving those freedoms away to those who have shown,
worldwide that they abhor freedom and will not apply it to you or even to
themselves, once they are in power.

They have universally shown that when they have taken over, they then
start brutally killing each other over who will be the few who control
the masses. Will we ever stop hearing from the politically correct, about
the "peaceful Muslims"?

I close on a hopeful note, by repeating what I said above. If we are
united, there is no way that we can lose. I hope now after the election,
the factions in our country will begin to focus on the critical situation
we are in, and will unite to save our country. It is your future we are
talking about! Do whatever you can to preserve it.

After reading the above, we all must do this not only for ourselves, but
our children, our grandchildren, our country and the world

Whether Democrat or Republican, conservative or liberal and that include
the Politicians and media of our country and the free world!

Please forward this to any you feel may want, or NEED to read it. Our
"leaders" in Congress ought to read it, too. There are those that find
fault with our country, but it is obvious to anyone who truly thinks
through this, that we must UNITE!

If you would like to see who this fellow is go to this Air Force web
sight and look him up.
http://www.af.mil/bios/alpha.asp?alpha=C

Have you ever had one of those days where you were getting everything done, you were plodding along nicely and then all of a sudden you just dropped and didn’t get back up.
I drove my Daughter up north Jersey to stay overnight with her Grandma and cousins. We had lunch up there then drove back home and put my Son down for a nap. Now you would think being one kid light, I would be kicking up my heels. Well on the contrary, all my energy both physical and mental was drained right out of me. I even felt a bit down in the dumps. I had so much that I wanted to do, but couldn’t motivate myself.
Then my Husband called and told me that our bank account was dangerously in the red and I thought that we were doing O.K. Well …there go my plans for Wednesday. I was going to buy the rest of the supplies to make the March Of Dimes sale items and order our Walkamerica Family Team shirts. It looks like I might even have to cancel my plans with my Second Husband (A.K.A. my Best Friend Lisa) for our rare Saturday outing at the movies, unless I can find the Loews gift card that my Brother gave me last Christmas. Man being broke sucks.

I am very upset. Chole(sp) WON! not my Danny V. on Project Runway. I even felt sorry for Santino. I actually liked his designs! Anyone else as sad as me about the outcome? Come on people talk to me.

We'll see who leaves A.I tonight. Who's your choice?

O.K., I’m back and I’m pissed (I know it didn’t take long). I’ve always been the Black Sheep of the Family,
but now it seems like I’m the A$$ Hole too. Read on…..
But first a little back-story. My Brother was married to a Psycho. During the divorce hearings I was there to support him. I found a babysitter for my Daughter and went to court (on Staten Island) with him even while I was pregnant with my second baby. I helped him clean out the house SHE trashed, loaned him our Fax in order for him to communicate with his Lawyer (who I found for him, BTW). I bought him another one when I needed ours back (which the spoiled brat gave back to me without a cartridge, and still hasn’t given me a new one.) I even took care of my Niece’s Birthday party so that he wouldn’t have to stress about it.

Now fast forward to June 5, 2004. I go into preterm labor.
June 6, 2004 I have a 3.1 lb baby boy who is in the Nic-U
for six weeks, my Brother sees him ONCE.

Just a few weeks ago, I asked my Brother to join walkamerica with us as a Family Team. This is what he wrote:
Hi Guys I’m sorry I haven’t got back to you sooner but my life is one big blur these days even more than it’s ever been. I’m sorry I don’t want to commit to anything now with this whole mess with the Ex and wedding plans and overtime and the kids extracurricular activities etc…. I know it’s a great cause and I feel bad turning Vaughn down right now but it sounds too time consuming for me at this point in time (TOO TIME CONSUMING!) I’m only planning my life a couple of days at a time right now and Mara has to work on Sundays so if I was able to do it, it would just be me. Mara can’t afford to take any time off from work (but she took off early to go to a 40th Birthday party). I hope you’re not to disappointed but I could give you a strong maybe for next year (don’t insult me!!) or the next walkathon. Once again I’m sorry. Love you guys and I hope to see you soon.

This is what I wrote back, after many rewrites
Well Erik I have to be honest and let you know….YES I am disappointed.

Don’t mistake what I’m about to say. I know your life is stressful and chaotic,
I’ve always known that. However I feel you need to hear this from MY perspective.

The March Of Dimes gave Brian and me answers and support when we didn’t know day to day what would happen to Vaughn. They played an essential role in SAVING Vaughn’s life. Therefore this walking event is greatly personal to me. I thought perhaps you would see the walk could have been a good experience for Brittany and Ryan to learn about paying it forward. Not to mention that it would just make a great Family day out.

It’s sad to me that you are so consumed by your emotional muck that you can’t see the Forest for the Trees.

As apart of THIS Family you, of all people should know how important it is to be there for each other. I’ve done so for you and the kids. I just thought that you could be there for me this once. I’m sorry you don’t see it that way.

In a second E-mail I asked him if he could pay me the $12 difference from the fax cartridge/ Brittany Christmas gift deal we made so that I could put it toward the walkamerica donations. This is what he wrote:
Dawn I believe we settled the money issue with the apples to apples game for Brittany. If I am wrong please refresh my memory as to why I still owe you $12. I can still make a contribution though even if I don't owe you any money, but I'm afraid it won't be too much I'm one step above poverty. I can sense some animosity still over this walkathon. I don't want this to become an issue between us, we are family and I love you guys. I am sorry if your not happy with my decision but it turns out Brittany has a swim meet that day anyway (which is beside the point). This is why I can only plan my life a couple of days at a time. I can't have Brittany miss that swim meet because she is already missing two other ones. Mara is working that day and I have to coach the meet so that would only leave Ryan available (sarcasm not appreciated). I was deeply concerned for you and Vaughn when he was born and I don't think you are being fair to me (I’M NOT BEING FAIR TO HIM?). I am holding back a little bit here because I don't want to add fuel to the fire (If you don’t want to add to the fire, then don’t tell me your holding back, am I right people?). Please understand my situation and let's put this behind us. I love Vaughn very much and I am so happy the March of Dimes was there to help him and you guys and I'm not taking it all for granted. I will make you a promise to try my best to be there for the next one. My biggest problem was I didn't have the time to run around finding sponsors. So please let's get past this and go back to the way things were (Yeah where you walk all over us again…I don’t think so). Once again I'm sorry and I will see you guys soon, I hope. Love you guys

Love Erik

To add insult to injury, he told Mommy on me. She called me from his house while babysitting HIS kids and asked me about what was going on, and why did I write such a nasty E-mail? Boo-freakin- Hoo. Then she proceeded to defend him!!! Am I crazy? I honestly don't know what to see to this boy. I need opinions/advice here, except for you Tara, you must be Switzerland since you know both of us. I know I’m right; I just want you all to confirm that.

So I went to Steph's Baby Shower/Scrapbooking Class, against my will(but glad I went) and feeling like cockie (really). After feeding the kids, I decided to save time and bathe them together (as any Mom will do) and my Son POOPED in the tub. I had to whip my Daughter out, before it floated over to her. As I was wrapping her in a towel, I turn around to find my Son drinking the water. YUCK AND YIKES. I gave him a "bird bath" in the sink, through the tub toys out, got them both dressed (Breath). My Husband comes home and says that he's not going to his club meeting, therefore not taking them out. (Just Breath). I tell him where the kids are as far as scheduling, and he asks me if our Son had his night time bottle.......... WHAT ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!.......DO YOU WANT TO BE ON MY LIST?!

Anyway have to go get myself dressed as I need to take my Daughter to get her hair cut. My Husband tried to cut her bangs (nuf said)

Well hi. Here I am...at last. I really can't say much right now because it's a rainy cold indoor kinda day and I have two kids tugging at me. PLAY WITH ME MOMMY!!!! LOOK AT ME MOMMY!!!
DON"T DO THAT!!!! GET DOWN FROM THERE. STOP THAT!!! MY EARS ARE BLEEDING!!!! I'm suspose to go out tonight to my Step Sister In Law's to Scrap......YES I'm a Scrapbook Junkie. Ya wanna make somethin of it?! BUT with it being so nasty out I'm in stay home and watch Idol results mode....YES I'm an Idol Addict too (the original). The darn (hate that word, so want to use the REAL word) thing is that tonight my Step-Sister-In-Law's (Let's just call her Steph for the sake of my typing) assistant is give her a baby shower tonight, therefore I kinda feel abligated to go, otherwise I'd tell her I'm not coming and call my Digi Scrapping Mentor,Tara, and tell her to come on over.(Make her drive in this weather...Ya;)

O.K. the kids are queit, gotta go see whats goin on(pray for me)